Post 52: Recent Emotions (Part 6)

I’ve been really depressed since May ended. While a few happy things happened last June, the heaviness mostly affected it all. And that led me to feel…

Tired

Because I’ve been depressed, I’m physically and emotionally tired. Heavy thoughts still run in my mind, and it’s been tiring. I’ve been having a hard time getting good sleep, whether I sleep for seven or nine hours. My body has been aching, too. I’m not getting any younger.

Stressed

Even though I’m tired, I still needed to work on many things, notably a ton of paperwork. And while I could call that productive, I didn’t feel that way because the stress I’ve been through outweighed the accomplishment. Speaking of outweigh, I’ve gained more weight and fat because of stress-eating.

Anxious

While I’m tired and stressed, my anxiety was all over the place, too. I don’t want to share what made me anxious, but all I can say is that even simple things have triggered me. I’ve been having a hard time calming my nerves, and it’s like I’m reliving the hell I went through years ago.

Basically, what I’m trying to say is that the end of May and the entire month of June are not mostly fine for me. I still feel that way, and honestly, I don’t see an end to this.