Wow. I haven’t blogged at night in weeks.
Moving on, I’ve decided that from now on, I will end every month with a Recent Emotions post. That’s three emotions to sum up an entire month. Sounds like a great idea, right?
Here’s my emotional summary for April 2026:
Restless
One of my bad traits is that I overthink. Sometimes, I think about creative ideas at 1am. Sometimes, I thought of revising a message I sent years ago. Good thing I have outlets for all the things that came out from all the overthinking, but honestly, the thoughts overflowed and spilled everywhere, and that made me feel restless.
Heavy
While my mind went into overdrive, my body and heart felt heavy. Aside from creative ideas that pop up at any time (even at midnight), I’ve been thinking about my life situation lately, and I want to make more changes. But honestly, I couldn’t make those changes because I feel like I’m running out of time. And that’s just one reason for heaviness.
Persistent
I may have felt restless and heavy, but at least I’m still here. That’s important. And after getting more rest than usual, going out more, and sharing my thoughts and feelings with my loved ones (even though I was scared), I feel emotionally better now. Even though I don’t have solutions to my problems yet, I’ll figure things out with persistence.
That’s it for now. Looking forward to May!
Ian Pasicolan 